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"i chose to break something.. sad.. really sad.."

9 something am..

good morning jez! .. head spinning... teka, hangover? umm.. di nga pala ko umiinom... umm.. naiinis.. naiinis.. naiinis..

ref.. jam.. bread..

lalabas pala ko..

naiinis.. naiinis.. naiinis..

cellhone.. scroll.. delete, delete, scroll.. delete.. idelete nalang lahat!!

beep.. sms.. "goodmorning jez!"

smile.. :) :)

teka... umm.. mali mali.. bakit ka nakangiti...

bad jez!

12 something pm...

fx: kamusta ka na?

pom: ang haba ng hair ng lola mo.... nakakainis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

usap.. usap.. usap..

jadson: ... sige

kain.. kain.. kain..

jadson: ikaw nga bea nya e...

pom: haha!!!! tawa!!! tawa!! tawa!!! whatever..

fx: tawa..


lakad.. usap.. tawa.. yey!! buti nalang..

sms.. punta k?

isp. isip. isip. isp....

hmmm... sige na nga.. pwede pa naman.. naku patay ako nito.. (ayan na naman yun butterflies sa tyan ko.. )

ayun.. sige nalang na..

ayan na.. :)

bahala na... basta..

poor eyesight in teh dark... di ako makakita..

(ok lang nandyan naman sya.. ngingiti sana.. pero .. tsk tsk.. bad jez bad!!)

kain.. kwento.. tawa.. ngiti.. tingin sa mata.. tingin pa sa mata.. tingin pa sa mata.. hay..


oops... uuwi na tayo..

ate: uyy.. sige balitaan nyo ko..

pom: huh?!? wala to.. (naku.. wag nya malaman please!!! ayan na naman yun butterfly...)

hatid.. hatid. paalam.. umm.. hirap magpaalam..

"don worry ako bahala.. wag ka na magisip.."

arrfg!! yun ang talgang gusto ko gawin magisip!!! *&^*&^ ayoko malaman yun susunod na mangyayari..

hay...

pom: "wag na.. pano kung di na ko ang gusto mo... " haha...

tapos.. rant.. rant rant.. rant.. rant..(patient sya e.. nakikinig naman.. ) kaya sige rant pa din.. "diba. nakakainis yun.. !"

........: osige na.. ikaw lang, isip ka ng isip sa nangyari..
pom: e kaya nga e.. basta hayaan mo nalang ako..



hay.. bakit kasi di ka pa pumasok sa loob jez!!!!!

pom: "basta.."

..............................: "bahala ka.."

pom..: :/ ok...

pag uwi..

sige jez.. toturin mo sarili mo..


tanong tanong... ym.. alam mo naman sagot.. pilit ka pang nagttanong kung ano dapat mo gwin..

sms: andto na ko.. good night..

pom: ok ingat dyan.. :)

(pero talgang :( ganito sya.. haha!!)

ayun.. ahhh.. bukas ako ng blog..
blog..

silip silip silip.. ( habang sumisilip..naalala.." wag mo na kasi ttgnan pa yun..")

e ayun.. tinignan pa din.. binasa.. binasa.. wahhh!!!! :(
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ang dami ko ng di gagawin next time..

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:'(

kumuha ng tubig.. nilagay ang bulaklak sa improvise vase....

pinsan: ang ganda nyan pom ah..

pom: may chocolate pa.. :'(

pinsan: ubos na ata.. wag na inuubo ka e...

pom.. e ok lang yan... badtrip ako e..

pinsan: hehe.. naubos na e..

pom: WAAAHHt! .......................... ok.... bag.. halungkat ng chocolate.. halungkat.. oo makalat si bag... halungkay..

ah! meron pang isa.. pulang chokolate...

wah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! naalala ko si.......

ano ba yan...

pinsan: "noodles na to.. iyo ba?"

katxt: ano magnda sa sine?


pom: waaah!!!!! ayoko na.. ayoko na.. oo.. ok.. ok na ko.. ayoko na...


iyak.iyak.iyak... umm. tapos na 11 minutes.. nagiinarte naalng..


higa.. pray.. tulog...

bangon.. net. net. net.. tulog..

sunday: 9 am...


pom: "bakit???...."


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as long as it is HIS promise.. no problem!! part 2.. guarded

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." (Proverbs 4:23)

and i thank God he has been guarding not only my heart but its decisions as well...
oh.. and these decisions.. their hard.. umm.. i have to really think.. and see..

i chose the one HE had provided for me..

no, he's not one of the "guys" i mentioned before... though..... yes.. there are "thoughs and what ifs..."

but i can not risk my decision to my faith.. its sad.. but its what i chose..


i'm choosing to wait... from James 1:17 we know that God gives us good and perfect gifts, and Ephesians 3:20 says that we know God is able to do above and beyond all that we can ask or even think.

as long as it is HIS promise.. no problem!!

finally..

i can write again..

after all the drama.. umm... more drama i guess..

its my last week at work..

probably my last week also at the place i live in..

oh... and the "boys"... yup..

lets see..


-i feel brave enough to resign, probably should be braver becoming unemployed for a while.. i believe i can find a new one in no time.. i just hope it would be way way better than my present one..

---bottom line for me: DONT give your TRUST that easilly...
CONSIDER the advice of people who have been there
and the most important thing.. still.. TRUST GOD..

-i'm getting, ummm.. evicted in the place i live in.. umm..

---crux for me: REVIEW all your decisions, for teh CONSEQUENCES may last a lifetime..
RELATIVES.. ummm.. they kinda suck sometimes... umm.. BIGTIME!

-and oh yeah... the "BOYS"

plural form.. yep! never had so many of them in my life.. haha!!!

----so how will you choose?
of his roses and chocolates... how do you say no?
of his laughter and his smile... how do you say no?
of.. umm.. his looks.. haha! how do you say no?

lets see..
it's because it just wont work... even though everyone has practically vouched for him.. even i sometimes ask, how come it's not him... probably there's someone else.... is it the other one who sounded so different.. no one's vouching for him and taking the risk of going out with him sounds so appealing.. sounds so.. umm.. "secret lovers" .. but knowing the consequences make my tummy squirm.. it will ruin not only friendships but probably us as well... and so down to the last one.. he whose looks had one the smiles of everyone in our place.. haha... but this one, i can expect nothing.. im too tired of dealing with first two.. i just waved my hand and put down my hair.. sayng.. haha!! "ang ganda ko naman..."

but seriously.. i was thinking this maybe God's way of preparing me for something nice.. hmmm.. the "outing" at the end of November... the one where i might probably see who He had chosen for me... haha!!!

the feeling of being "liked"... its nice.. but i believe I'll have someone that HE has picked specifically for me.. maybe he is one of the boys i talked about.. but I know God is saying.. "wait..."


i don't mind waiting.. as long as I'm holding on to HIS promise.. i can wait and wait and wait.. :)