last on who's priority?

This week has been too much for me but I guess not for the Lord.

I started work this week, actually yesterday. it was tiring, training palang yun.

prior to my employment, i had to accomplise some"pre-employment requirements" such as sss id, med certificate and nbi clearance... everything i did in one whole week without any help from anyone except His guidance.

as i look back, i was proud of myself.. i was able to do everything independently... but i found out i was sick.. from my med exam.. so this time, i need someone to actually accompany me see a doctor and have a treatment... i asked one friend... sabi ko i need to go to the hospital for a check up, and if SHE can accompany me there... that was last night.. i got her reply this morning saying she had to do a lot of things...

ok.. i just wondered, what if sabi ko "may malubha akong sakit, samahan mo ko..." would she have said yes? or maybe not..

one thing that i learned at the workplace during my first day was prioritizing.. and so i guess i was the last on her list... i did frown.. and became sad.. why would you want to be tha last one on his/her list of priorities? or maybe naman may present illness is not that grave that she can pass on it nalang. pwede rin diba?

nalala ko tuloy yun "parachute message" na motto ng kaibigan ko..

"needing someone is like needing a parachute. If they aren't there the time you really need them, chances are you wont be needing them again."


actually totoo naman.. in some way.. nung narealize ko na gust ko ito isend sa "friend" kong di ako sinamanhan, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na: parang ang bitter mo naman who cant forgive and give second chances.. actually pang ilang chance nya na ba 'to? hmm.. baka ako dapat ang talgnag wag na humingi ng tulogs sa kanya... hehe.. akala ko kasi pag kapatid sa pananampalataya, automatic na matulungin.. hehe! actually lahat nman matulungin.. di lang lahat syempre.. lagi naman ika nga e "exemption to the rule"


i started the week alone. (just with God)

i may end it alone.. (still with HIM)

"i may" lang naman... what if may bigla akong makasama.. pero ok lang.. i would always be very glad to end and start the week with the Lord..

i always felt na since im an only child.. i was really destined to be alone.. in everything.. few.. as in very few of my friends would actually say that they will be there for me and really be there.. problem is, they're not here in manila.. some are even halfway across the globe...


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Salamat pala GIZMO sa pagbati...
at Ginoong Lapis.. salamat din ng madaming madami! haha.. parang gumagawa naman tayo ng pelikula sa iniisip mong pagtatagpo natin... :)

magiisip nga din ako ng magandang pagtatagpo...


saka kay Fjordz.. salamat din kasi yun isa sa posts mo.. may narealize ako na nakatulong din sa 'kin.. :)