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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

yey!

salamat po kuya homebody hubby!!!

wohoo!! may award na may candle of friendship pa.. ayos!!



binibigyan ko din nito sila...

fjordz!
kookoo!!
at G. Lapis!!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

learning the hard way

sometimes,

we think too much of the past that we forget about the present...
we live our lives so hard for a future full of uncertainties that we see less of what is happening at present.

we like the idea of some things so much that it hides that bitter reality of uncertaities and mistakes...

we only see things that we wanted to see... we blind ourselves to what displeases us.. i do that a lot lately...

and so..

for the nth time, i have to learn things the hard way.. again..

.. maybe you never were friends in the first place
...maybe you chose the wrong course in college
..maybe you trusted the wrong friend
...maybe you just have to accept things and move on..

yes, i'm learning things the hard way again...

Friday, November 14, 2008

almost there...

joy in my heart.. I've got joy.. j-o-y..

haha.. no i don't have joy but i'm getting there... thank God..

leting bygones be bygones is not easy but one "friend' did it.. how can i not..

so yesterday, before i went back to manila.. i met with some of my older friends..

as we discussed life over donuts and coffee... slowly, i felt the j-o-y creeping back in my heart again..

my friend said loving something and someone involves not only our feelings but our choice.. yes.. our choices play a big part our lives...

my choice.. your choice... when we decide impatiently.. we get bad reviews amd consequences.. but spometimes even if we think about it for the longest time.. we stil get bad eggs in the end..

so how do we make the right choiice..

i can imagine them again.. they all said.. "through God's wisdom.."

of course! yes. in Hima lone do we get the perfect answer to our every question...

and so... on my way back to the busy husstles and buzz of the city life.. i affirm in His promise of j-o-y in my heart...

oh yes..

and so i sing... in my own version!


I'll have joy down in my haert.. deep deep down in my heart..

jesus gives it to me.. and no one can destroy it... WHHHOOPS!

I'LL HAVE JOY DOWN IN MY HEART.. DEEP DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART!!!


hugs!!

ps..

to the man behind the smile.. if ever you stumble on this..

THANK YOU... cheers to the new chapters in our lives.. NEW chapters...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

fear factor ... jezreel version.. hehe

nasubukan mo na bang matakot?

malamang oo...

ayon sa pinagaralan namin nung kolehiyo pa ko.. mahigit sa isang daan ang tinatawag na "phobia" ng madaming tao...

kagabi nanood ako ng "fear factor" at marami nga naman doon ay hahamon sa lakas na loob.. iniisip ko yuloy, saan ba ako natatkot?

bigla ako nakatanggap ng sms galing sa pinsan ko.. ayun! alam ko na kung ano kinatatakutan ko..

hehe.. di si pinsan o ang celphone.. ang weird pero natatakot ako sa "kamaganak' ko.. oo.. pag pinaguusapan ang pinsan, o aunti o uncle.. napapatahimik ako...

magisang anak lang ako.. naalala ko, nung nakaraang linggo, may nangyari sakin at pinagtanggol ako ni inay at itay... e sabi ko wag na nilang gawin.. ok lang ako.. (kahit di naman) oo, si "kamaganak" yun napagsama ng loob ko...

bata palang ako.. natatakot na ko sa mga yun.. para silang mga 'boss" sa kumpanya na dati kong pinagtratrabahuhan.. dapat ko din silang pagsilbihan... oo siguro onligasyon ko yun.. pinagsisilihan ko ang magulang kasi mahal ko sila at nararamdaman ko.. pero si aunti at uncle.. hay juice ko.. apple juice kalamnsi juice ko po!

pag sila naaalala ko.. madami akong naaalalang di kanais-nais na bagay.. grabee.. para bang matutulala ko tapos maalala ko din yun scene sa time zone.. tadadadadan... basta...

ayun yun pala siguro phobia ko... having contact with a relative.. lalo na uncles and aunties.. para bang kakainin nila ko kasi ng buhay kahit di naman..

ay.. at saka pala sa mga overpass na yun hagdanan butas butas.. medyo naiilang ako dumaan dun..


kahit na may mga "phobia' ako... ok alng naman.. wala naamng imposible kay God e.. aalisin nya yun..

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strenth.. ika nga sa bible..

kaya sige na.. bukas haharap na ko sa mga hurado na binunuo ng angkan ng aking ama.. aka aunties.. apol juice ko po.. nakakakakaba!!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

a romantic flick

who loves fairy tales????

i DO!

lately while bumming around i was inspired to write one..

and so the story goes like this.....


one fine day.. in the magical kingdom of forEVER.. lived LADY . She is surrounded by her good and loving friends...She lives with her stepmother and 3 step sisters... she works for her stepmother Anlyn, along with her step sisters Sonja(the eldest) B( yes her name is just a letter), and Marcel.. Lady's (yes, that's her name...) main task is to recruit people in their mini businesss and every day.. her task become more and more tedious.. It is just too much for a young lass to handle.. her sisters are not as bad as those "occasional" step sisters you read in fairy tales.. though they are sometimes mean to her too.. they felt bad for LADY so they allowed her to get some help from her friends.. Edson, her good friend volunteered to help in exchange that she gives him some advice regrading theins and outs of the business world, for somedat Edson would want to be in the same business as Lady's family... Edson brought along two of his friends too... Lloyd and Derek, two dashing men from the EAST! and so the Lady along with new found friends Lloyd and Derek worked everyday. Lady's family business was doing well but she is yearning for something else.. Her late father has always told her to follow whatever it is that she is interetsted inand that is teaching and writing,, But oh, her step mother finds it rubbish.. she wont allow Lady to leave the company... So lady continued working at their company... But she is so sad... This sadness was noticed by Lloyd, the dashing warm-hearted man turned his friend... he asked what's keeping her sad.. and so she toled him of her plans.. everyday, Lady and Lloyd would discuss theri future plans and found out that theyboth liked the same things.. well, almost... on the other hand, Derek was also noticing Lady's sadness so he makes funny jokes to make her happy... Edson observed that thing are getting better for his friends and so he is happy... As everything becomes better for Lady, little does she know that Lloyd was falling for her.. And so one night, Lloyd confessed to Lady.. but oh the sadness of Lloyd when LAdy refused him.. Edson leaned about his two friends' predicament and supported Lloyd in her conquest to win Lady's heart.. Along the courtship.. something happened.. in the land of the EAST came chaos.. some men were dplaguing the city of EAST. Edson and Llloyd has to return to the EAST to help their fellowmen... they decided that Derek be left with LAdy.. LLoyd entrusted her love, LAdy to his good friend Derek... months and months passed.. though LLoyd is away, he never forgot his love for Lady.. he sends her flowers and letters ... but still Lady's heart was closed for him... this was giving Lady some sadness.. Lloyd's courtship to Lady was supported ny Edson and even Lady's fam,ily.. Her stepmoth and sisters would convince LAdy to accept Lloyds love.. but her heart.. her heart may have belong to someone else.. or nona t all.. her love belong to the children.. to teaching and to writing... Her sadness came into Derek's observation.. everyday.. Derek would cheer her up.. and one day, derek asked something that have made Lady's heart all the more stressed... Derek likes Lady.. oh no, teh lass was confused.. she does have fun with Derek.. a lot of fun.. theri conversations would go on for hours and still, she's not tired of him.. but what about Lloyd.. who was bravely fighting in the EAst.. Her family had arranged everything for her to be betrhoted to Lloyd.. a nobleaman he is.. but, something's amiss for Lady.. her heart's undecided.. she spent days thinking untill she got terribly ill... it was almost death.. It was Derek who looked after her along with her family.. he serached for the best medicine to cure her..And one day as she felt she was well enough, she realized a lot of things and talked to her stepmother, after the talked emerged a decsion.. she will not be with LLoyd, nor with Derek.. she will pursue her love.. teaching and writing at the NORTH.. where some of their relatives live... she talked to Derek about herdecision and he reluctantly accepted her decision.. though he asked if He comes in the North with her... would she have accepted him.. she did not answer and left Derek...
weeks later, the war in the East was done. Edson and Lloyd went home. as they were about o get home, Edson noticed something in Lloyd's eyes.. wrath.. jealousy.. He knows... as soon as they got home he looked for Lady.. he confronted her with harsh words that made Lady weep in sadness and hurt.. Lady just got of sickness that almost had her killed.. if it it wasnt for derek.. than she would be dead.. but the wrath in Lloyd's eyes was so visible.. Lloyd accused dereka nd Lady of being lovers behind his back... he felt betrayed.. LAdy vehemently denied Lloyd's allegations.. she said that the allegations arent thue and since first she never gave her heart to lloyd nor to Derek.. Derek saw the confrontation between Lloyd and Lady. he tried to break off the argument by explaining but Lloyd was too mad.. the two battled in their anger with their fists.. and then at the end a sho echoed the air....

it was a gunshot...

Edson went out to see what was that.. his lovely wife emioly followed.. and so as anlyna dn her daughters..


oh the sight was almost tragic.. but not quite...

years passed.. and we see things turned out to be quite different..


Derek picked a book that has Lady's anme engraved in it.. he bought it for 3 gold coins.. and he saw Lloyd walking with Edson.. nods were exchanged but the wrath of yesterday is till in men's eyes..

and LAdy... the sweet Lady.. she was surrounded by her little angels.. teh children she loved to teach and the books she thought she'd never had...

Saturday, November 8, 2008

is the juice still worth the squeeze?

The very essence of our existence had been a topic that entangled the mind of so many philosophers for ages… so many theories were formulated why we exist and continues to exist. How does one still exist amidst all the trials life has given.

According to Wikipedia, the word "existence" comes from the Latin word 'existere', meaning to appear or emerge or stand out. To emerge and to stand outr, I believe has always been in the mind of every individual.

I remembered my chat with some old high school friends regarding our existence in our high school days. Some existed to be just mere wall flowers during that time but we were surprised at the social status they have achieved at the present.

Existence. Why do we exist? To emerge and stand out, what do we do? Does winning the regional quiz bee prove our existence? Or does bagging a Latin Honor during college prove your worth in the society? How about being part of the winning debate team? the school’s famous varsity maybe? Or the position you hold at the company you’re working in?

Existentialism is a subject I’ve studied in college that challenged my beliefs and ignited my mind to think about life. It has made me think of so many WHYs in my life and HOW to achieve the answer in my WHYs. Existentialism is a philosophy concerned with finding self and the meaning of life through free will, choice, and personal responsibility. I think it has always been human nature to ask “why?” and “how come?”

I have always believed that I exist because God wants me to exist, God, the beginner and finisher of my life.

"For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him" (Colossians 1:16).

As these times of uncertainty cause countless doubts and resentment to a lot of people all over the world, more and more people would ask the question why…

Lately, I’ve caught myself asking God why some things happen to me… and when I would see myself asking.. I’d claim my faith in Him…

from James 1:17 we know that God gives us good and perfect gifts, and Ephesians 3:20 says that we know God is able to do above and beyond all that we can ask or even think.

Is the lifestyle I have built for myself still worth living? Or, has the people I have surrounded myself with still worth of me?

The answer to those…

I wanted to say yes… but at the back of my mind I kept telling myself “I don’t know..” I really don’t know the answer…

In a couple of weeks, the year is about to end again… how I wish a lot of chapters in my life will end as the year would change.

It’s easier to wear slippers that to carpet the whole earth… hay, maybe the juice is still worth the squeeze, yeah?

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

read this!

Rizal said the pen is mightier than the sword..

i guess he's right.. someone's words had literally got my hands shaking and in tears...

this is the last time im going to justify myself to you.. if ever you'll be reading my post..

SKATER BOY is my old org mate from FEU!!! he's not your friend! i did nothing behind your back! i would definitely miss bumping into him in the school's grounds, corridors, the game me and my friends attend to and outside school!

should i tell you that someone else like me? i didnt think i should but seriously i was really gonna tell you... oh wait.. i guess i was late kasi YOU already made up your mind ABOUT ME!!!!!!

what i denied.. about him? i chose to do it at that moment because i dont know how to tell you.. and i had my reasons.. and oh.. na baka si girl lang may gusto... NAGTANONG BA TALGA KAYO SAKIN BEFORE YOUMADE SUCH CONCLUSIONS!!!!!!!!

secret lovers! it was just something that i thought of during that time because he resembled an office mate's ex boyfriend whom she had a "secret affair"... kamukha NYA yun dating boyfriend na ka-officemate ko.. kung saan itong si officemate at ex ay naging secret lovers! kaya ko nsabi yun mga katagang secret lovers ay marahil yun ang naiiisp ko nung time na yun! but it doesnt mean i like him to be anything else but a friend...

DO YOU REALLY NEED TO QUOTE ME?!? in your blogs!!! oh.. yeah let me quote this "It really ruined not only friendships! But truly their selves as well…"

we ruined ourselves to you?!?

I have deemed you to be more than this... i really did.. the repercussions to what i did.. that "did" that you think was so "grave".. i get it.. i just dont get this!

when i said sorry sayo.. i meant it.. i just dont know if you meant yours!!! all the things you've said.. you can never erase them..